i’m not disciplined yet. but i’m trying

so this is going to be my first blog where i'm gonna share my raw thoughts.

so the problem with me is i can't be able to disciplined for a long time, by long time i mean days, not hours. the weird thing with me is that i easily get involved in work that is not adding value to my life. some of the things are:

• building a fun project that's not gonna help me with anything

• searching for something for hours

• nowadays I'm brainstorming the ideas for the grant and a hackathon, so it consumes a good amount of time to research

• start building the project without validating the idea (memehub was created just like that)

• wasting too much time in the toilet, just overthinking (my real followers know the reason)

• sometimes I waste a good amount of time just to post a tweet (I feel really bad after it)

i don't ever follow a routine like some other people do (waking up at 6 am, doing this by this time blah), i've tried making a routine, but it doesn't work for me.

so what i do is i write down my tasks that i have to do either in the night or early in the morning, and bcs of this i don't get distracted easily, but still sometimes, bcs of the factors i mentioned, i got distracted.

in the summer, i get highly distracted, until i don't get a bath, i am unable to focus on my work. and the ac and the cooler don't work for me, i start to feel tired in both of them after some time.

i think i got distracted from the topic, sometimes i literally waste whole days but on the twitter i never share that and i think everyone shares only their w's not how their everyday life looks like (it's also a reason i started sharing my raw thoughts so that you guys can get to know more about me).

the main reason how i wasted the whole day is mostly the nap. like i heard, people feel very fresh after taking a nap but that's not the case with me, when i take a nap and wake up (don't matter how many hours of sleep) i always feel tired and i feel my head hurts heavily and my eyes start to burn.

and one thing more, whenever there is an rcb match i can't stop myself from watching the match. like i'm watching the cricket from a long time now (10 years approx) and also i was a professional cricketer for around 2-3 years (i forget the exact time and there is a reason behind it tho) so whenever there is an rcb match then my productivity at that time goes very low, i still do work in that time while watching the match but i don't do the focused work in that period. i fully ignore the other teams' matches, tho.

if you are here still reading it i know it is not making any sense to you bcs i'm distracting from the topic a lot.

so the thing is i always try to avoid the things that i know can make me waste my whole days and distract me, like at this date i'm writing the blog is also a wasted day for me, i haven't done any good work, i just fixed an add-on that was broken, created an image to text extractor web application for fun, added two new templates to memehub, brainstormed an idea for a hackathon and next grant project (this took a lot of time), written this blog lol

so i put this day in a wasted day category as i was also supposed to clear my devops backlog, learn figma, solve cf questions, and more.

but tomorrow will gonna be a productive day again after this off day.

so this was all thing, if you have read this shit till now then thanks, i know it does not make any sense but i will get better after every other blog so bear with me.

next time, i will come with a good topic and a good format and structure.

good by anon :)